Like I said before, I am not perfect. That's why this is so late! I've been quite consumed with personal thoughts and worries (A.k.a. Selfish Lack of Faith). My prayers are constant but in no way reverent to Christ. He deserves at the very least my reverence. Imperfect. That's this girl!
I went to the doctor in Birmingham last Monday, March 12. I had a CT scan on my head first then the brain doctor said there's no significant change from my last scan. BUT he was happy with and for the movement that came to my face. It's still pretty expressionless...full expressions that is. My cheek goes back further making my smile bigger :). I can move the left side of my nose (snarl) and since the first of this week there is some movement in my left eyebrow. All of this is credited solely to God. He is healing me. That shouldn't surprise me in any way, but I have had those moments and wonder if I shouldn't live in confidence knowing He heals. Period.
After that I saw my eye doctor who says that my eyes have improved by 20% in 4 weeks. Awesome, God. I am allowed to drive (legally) with one eye covered. So I'm driving some...with caution, yes.
Now I'll go back to my brain guy April 23 around lunch for an MRI to take a look at that pesky fluid in my spinal cord, you know the reason for doing all this "fun" stuff. The doctor says he believes the fluid/syrinx is gone or very small. Duh, God's got this! My arms and the changes in feeling I have in them tell me there's change in the fluid. The eye guy said he doesn't need to see me back in 4 weeks. He is leaving up to me to call back for an appointment if necessary.
Thank you so, so much for your prayers. Thank you for your thoughts. I have received cards and text messages and phone calls just saying Hi or checking on me. That gets me! The selfish stuff I mentioned before...I'm out on an island by myself. It's lonely in this body a lot. Jesus is perfect though, and because He is perfect means He will never leave me. That's what He replies to me when I get really down and ask, "Why God?! Why me?! Why now?!" Oh yes, I have dared to ask the Almighty Creator of this universe why. Simple: Why not? A friend of mine and I had this conversation quite a few months ago. We are okay that God allows what He does. I'm a messed up human that can come up with some bad emotions, but after all that, Jesus still loves me (I don't get it either) and everything's going to be alright. I'm a child of THE KING!
